I had this blog for about a few years now and I've came a long way. I stopped this blog about a year ago due to security and personal reasons and had been afraid to blog here ever since. This blog is what I worked so hard at creating and making a life out of, but unfortunately it ceases to continue.

But. If you want to continue catching up on what I'm doing, you are welcomed to do so at my new blog. :) I've actually contemplated about giving out my new blog's url.

den-of-a-bookworm.blogspot.com

I really can't leave blogging alone. OTZ I have to write and express somehow or I feel like I'm wasting my life. Life goes on with me having a blog, a digital diary and a book diary. Yeah, I'm greedy like that. Now I have something new; I have a game blog where I post summaries for the games I'm currently playing, which is just 2. LOL

I really really love this blog and it pains me to stop it. I even changed the url, which is why it sounds so weird.

I was just 13 (first year of secondary school) when I started blogging and now I'm 17 and in my last year of secondary school! It really feels like I've came a loooooong way. I used to think I would be in school forever but now, in about 4 months, I'll be officially out of school. Which is kinda sad actually, if you think about it. ;_;

But then again, I have a whole new life waiting for me. I'm going to college soon, and its gonna be so different. I'm gonna miss secondary school. I feel so grown up now and I see all my friends and cousins grow - it feels so weird. We used to be kids and now we're talking about colleges and boys and stuff. I don't have a boyfriend by the way and not planning to have one soon. XD

I seem to find being single very rewarding and I'm loving it every moment. I can do more stuff with my friends and just enjoy being with myself and my family. I really do not want to get a bf anytime soon but my Mum says that when I go to college, its bound to happen. ;_; At least not so quick please - I wanna study and make myself rich and do all the stuff I love before I attach myself to someone.

A lot had happened since I was 13. First was growing up, then finding myself. I used to be this cowardly and unsociable girl. I used to be so insecure that whenever I see schoolmates in shopping malls, I'd hide at once. Now that I think about it, its so goddamn embarrassing. *face palm* But now I'm glad I left that all behind - I grew more sociable that I actually love having friends. And I'd shamelessly wave or go up to friends (or schoolmates) whenever I see them outside. The me ages ago wouldn't even dare to dream. But you (referring to the younger me) don't have to worry now - you have it all in your hands. :)

I know the younger me would be so proud to know that I have break through the obstinate layer between me and the world. Oh God, I feel like crying now. OTZ But I actually am glad that I grew stronger and braver.

I started believing in myself and the things that I can do. My Mum had always told me that I can do a lot of stuff, but I have a low self-esteem. I believed in myself when I did my Cambridge's CAE test last Dec and see what I got! I got an A! I was so goddamn happy I could burst out crying in public. LOL I ranked 4th in my course class out of about 20 kids, which means I surpassed the older kids. Secretly feeling happy about it. Hehehehe.

Its getting kinda lengthy now and if you wanna catch up with me and beyond, do check out my current blog!

Loves to all of you~ <3

"GOODBYE, THIS BLOG."

School holidays came again and 2 weeks for this time. Hence, I had tried to find for stuff to do instead of just rotting at home and spoiling my eyes in front of the computer. I had decided to make a scrapbook consisting of my cosplay pictures and maybe will try doing art and craft stuff. Though I have no idea what to do and so. Argghhh!!! It's so boring! Our 4-weeks school exams ended last week and is now waiting for photoshoots. I have tuitions even on holidays, damn it... T^T I wanna enjoy! Give me a break! OKay, shall have my lunch now and told you about how I shall spend my holidays, more or less. Bye~

Having exams now and will be having it for THREE FREAKING WEEKS! I have an estimated amount of 23 papers to take which lasted an estimated two hours per paper. I'm gonna be crazy soon... But you know, it's not that bad. I had thought that I would die from the stress, but I made it! =D I studied mostly last minute which is practically my style. =P (p.s. eating cereal now XD) I memorized 10 nilai for Moral last minute and I must say I did quite well. I hope that the results would be better than my first which had a few fails. Okay, not a few, it's a lot but I have my reasons. Currently trying to slim down and tone my body so that I would have more confidence in cosplay. The results are desirable, though my arms and legs added on a few centimetres, but my grandma said that I would look better with a little fats instead of having skinny legs and arms. The only place that lost weight are as stated below: Neck (0.2cm), waist (0.9cm), stomach (3.5cm), hips (2.5cm) and calf (0.7cm). I added 0.5cm to the bust, which is quite good actually. I had always wanted a really flat chest all this while when I'm growing up, but then I saw a picture of me with a really flat chest and from that day on, wished that mine would be a fair size. XD Tuition now, bye bye! <3

Been having itchy rashes on my body since yesterday... I don't know how it got there though I may have a slight clue. My mum had asked us to bathe after this little photoshoot we have on our own, but being myself - lazy - I said it's not necessary and everything and I regretted it! Had been scratching it but trying my best not to becuse my skin becomes red really fast so that it leaves a big red patch on the places I've scratched. I'm restraining! The rashes were everywhere - on my neck, my chest, legs, hands, feet, palms, head, back arghhh!!! IT'S SO ITCHY! I requested to bathe early today (12 something in the afternoon) and took another bathe after my nap at around 5 in the evening. I did not went to school today as tomorrow's a holiday and it would be a waste to go for a day. I Wrote one and a half pages of SEJ revision and got kind bored and took my lunch. I watched 'Natsume Yuujinchou' during lunch. A few years back, I had seen the manga but didn't bought it because it was so freaking expensive! My sister bought the anime. It was nice and my fav character is Natsume! Though it's expected for viewers to like the main characters, it's weird for me. I'm more to the minor character side, though there are a few main ones that I like. Arghhh!!! I hate having rashes! I have a tuition to go to afterwards and it's bothersome!!! I applied powder, quite a lot and it seemed to be better. Bye, I'll try my best to restrain...

"Minor characters are the main character of their life"

She was a short, white and petite woman. She was also my maths teacher in F1. I did not saw her for a long time since she's in the afternoon class division. My school used to be all in the morning but then it separated into two parts, starting from last year. I only saw her like 2 times per school days for a year.

When we were exiting the school through the big gate, she and another teacher were standing, lining up 10 boys or so and seems like they were being lectured. Haiz, kids these days... I mean, I'm in the 'kid' category but the F1 students in my school is so rebellious. They hang around the stairs and behind the school. Their hiding place is at the stairs beside the girl's toilet. I wonder why they aren't scared of being seen.

I was walking and chatting as always and then I saw her. I was looking at her and, surprisingly, she too. Her gaze followed me and I was shocked. She was still looking at a distant, a weird expression on her face. She seemed kinda distracted, she looked like as if she'd seen someone who had been lost all this while. She was honestly surprised.

Her mouth was agape, and staring. I smile and surprisingly she smiled back slightly, still shocked. Then I waved and she became happier. I almost reached the gate. Ah, the wonders. I was so damn happy and I felt like crying now. T_T She was doting on us all this while in F1 and said we were cute. OTZ I mean, twins... There's not one twin I'd seen before that does not look cute together. I love you, teacher!

We took our class photo today, so quick. We normally took it at the end of the year. I was in the toilet with friends for a long time. Wow, I can't even believe it's my first time looking into a mirror and preparing myself for the shoot. I want this to be a good photo, if not the best. I hope I came out cool! I was kinda looking nerdy in F1 to F3 and this is the first time I'm fairly excited to take a class photo. The effect of cosplay, much? XD

I've started watching Hana Kimi (Hanazakari no Kimitachi e) last week. It was a really good show and it makes me feel happy. It talks about a girl whom enrolled into an all-boys school to convince her high jump idol to jump again. Up to now - ep8 - I think that episode 7 is the best! I especially like the part where they put couples through the ghost house. Oscar was laughing like crazy! I had always thought that Oscar's laugh were creepy and funny.

He seemed to have a vulnerable body, being possessed by ghosts frequently. XD In the show, I watched the Jap live action movie, I like Nakatsu and Kayashima at first. Then I added Sano to my list. And then the doctor, Hokuto Umeda. I kinda like Sekime too, the guy whose name was always mispronounced by Nakatsu. Maybe the more I watch on, the more guys I would like. OTZ...

Bye bye~

Omg, I'm so happy~ I was surprised yesterday when a former primary school classmates transferred here. Today would be her 3rd time in school. I mean, I was shocked and hugged her right away, which was really weird because I'm not usually the huggy huggy type thought I like hugging people. It was a nice surprise!

We had a fire practice today and I'm guessing they are trying to make it more real considering that we had one yesterday and everyone walks slowly. This time, we were quicker. I was wishing that the alarm would ring during the two periods of Add. Maths. class, which happened! I was fairly excited. Then, a few members of the fire department demonstrated on how to put out a fire.

They got hold of a few extinguisher and I sure hope it isn't our school's. They called out 3 students, a girl and two boys. They had to wear a thick orange jacket and a white helmet, then a firemen lighted a tub of flammable oil and the fire sprung up. It was my first time seeing this kind of fire, it's roaring and... orange, honestly, it feels a little weird. Then they let the students try extinguishing it.

When the first firemen sprayed the extinguisher towards the fire, it stopped right away but when the students did it, the fire was still ongoing and they had to spray continuously which caused white smoke to envelope the whole field and students walked away, covering their noses. We could do a photoshoot, spraying the extinguisher, so it looks like mist. OTZ... Not a good idea.

Then, they called out a teacher, my former sports teacher of many form. Students were cheering and everything as she made her way to the fire. The orange flames turned into dense black smoke and it rises up to the sky. It looks genuinely like an air pollution. An Indian guy beside me were shouting, 'Bakar sekolah! Bakar!' which means 'Burn the school! Burn!' Omg...

The guard tried, he looked like a 70-80 years old man. They gave him a red cylindrical extinguisher and he sprayed. It can only be used indoor and the fire wouldn't go off, nevertheless, the guard uncle sprayed harder, the fire did minimised though. Then, they handed him a blue one and it put off the fire. People were cheering and shouting and I 'woo hoo!'ed for fun.

I was on FB just now while eating and came across this picture that features a meme.

Noooo, arghhh, I give up! I can't find the meme picture. OTZ But it's that cute guy with the eyeball rolled on top. We were laughing and she said that one is her. She's only 3, by the way. And when I drank Nescafe, she drank the finishing few and said 'Big spoon'. XD

Bye bye, gotta go now! Teaching my cousins to read!

School holidays just started and so I went to FB. I scrolled down my news feed and came across a video.

'Tingal ibu lumpuh di hotel bajet' which translated to 'Living paralysed mother in budget hotel' which was just fucking cruel!!! FUCK IT!!!

I can't believe how their kids can be so cruel. T^T The video lasted for 3.56 minutes and it shows an Indian/Punjabi woman sitting on the bed and crying and wiping away tears. It made me cry too because it was just so mean. I cry easily at sad things and I also do not like to cry because it's suffocating but the world had a lot of sad things not to cry for. Some people are just plain heartless, but every story had a truth behind it, don't it?

I mean, the mother is paralysed! And she is crying for God's sake! Please make this world a good place if not better. Fucking human!