Time has finally passed, huh? Here I am, a year ago thinking that the next December wouldn't come fast, but now, it's the last day of the 'December' I said last year. Have you been enjoying your 2011? If not, I really wish you a happy time next year and the year after. Who knows what'll happen next year? Maybe you'll fall in love, or even suddenly find interest in studies, who knows?

So, I have to log off now and I wish you all a Merry Happy New Year! I'm anticipating what will happen next year and I certaintly don't think the world is gonna end! Think positive and be forgiving and just enjoy life~

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012 :)

Sunday
25/12/2011
1.31am

Merry Christmas to everyone! How have you been enjoying yours?? :) I had an outing today which means yesterday on Saturday, but I don't consider it as tomorrow when I haven't sleep. XD Are you having fun on your Christmas? I hope you do 'cos it only happens once a year.

How I wish Malaysia has snow... But it means that we have to burrow our way out! We could play snowball fights and build snowmen too! XD

Well, my mood is kinda ruined today when the Canon guy said my boy cosplay looks like a girl while Dion looks like a proper boy. It really gets on my nerves, not about Dion, but about the part where he said that I do not look like a boy. I mean, I tried my best and they said that, it's just a stab straight to the heart...

My uncle adds to it too, saying I look more lady which just completely ruins my mood, said it a few times too. And when we're dancing 'Trick and Treat', Mummy said that too and it's the offensive max level. It really kills me... T_T

I felt so offended that I wanna do something offensive... Haiz... Took an arrow to the knee... But it's okay. My uncle said I looked too much like a lady, but I said 'Just watch me. I'm going to look like a proper boy! You bet'cha!'

I'm gonna try really hard!! And also in my studies!! Yeah!!!! JUST WATCH ME. Let's see at the end of next year what I'll be doing...

It's the 123rd post!! Haha! What's more is that I had flu, either caught from somewhere or I make it upon myself. OTZ

Bye now~ :) Enjoy Christmas!!

Thursday
22/12/2011
21:48pm

Apparently, my PMR results aren't that great... :( I feel so somber and sad... Out of 7 subjects, I got 2As, 3Bs and 2Cs. well, I'm lucky that my Cs does not overpower my Bs. Now listening to Yuki Kajiura's 'Little One, So Sweet - Rainbow - Lost Wings'. The title is really suitable for my mood now, but the song is actually cute and jumpy at the start but now it became sentimental... OTZ

Omg, I love this music. The front reminds me of the joy before reaching out for the results and now, the music reminds me of the horrific moment when I saw my results and thought that it was a mixed-up case. I have even been thinking to sms to the goverment for the confirmation of the marks. But I didn't.

I did sobbed a little because of shock, and in front of Mei Thoong's mom at that. I didn't regret it, at least not as much as I think. Why is the music changing! Now it's suits my after effect mood. OTZ Music box version. Ahh, it ended.

Now it's 'A Song of Storm and Fire' live version. I chose the playlist in Youtube. Gives me hope somehow... I'm just babbling right now... Now's the violin solo part. Why am I writing the songs out... I guess I'll just write it based on how the songs compliment my feelings. It sounds like 'Standup. You can do it. Next year.' Omg, what am I saying...

I'm getting weird. Oh, Dion got 5As and 2Bs respectively. I think she deserves it. I am beginning to think if different classes really affects the marks. I know very well that I've tried my best and I'll accept whatever the outcome may be.

'Mezame' is playing now, no idea what it meant. I recommend you check Yuki Kajiura's songs out. They're nice~ I'm like writing one paragraph per song... That's how I felt. This song makes me reflect upon myself. Since yesterday, I told myself that no matter what happened, I shall accept it and head on. Today I found that I accept it a whole lot better than I thought. I realised that I could try all over again next year. :) So, no worries. I'll take that results paper as my burning fuel for next year, my motivation.

Now's 'Yami no Prologue' for the animation 'Crisis Core'. Well, as expected, I got A for English and surprisingly the other for MATHS. Never would have imagined since my Maths is always C. It's a short song.

Now is 'Bloody Rabbit' from Pandora Hearts! No wonder it's so familiar. The 3Bs is for Geography, Science and Malay. C is for History and Kemahiran Hidup Bersekutu. My 2 weakest subjects. Kemahiran Hidup Bersekutu (KHB) means something like home skills. Oh, random, I had a Youtube account :AngelofMagick, which I don't use. OTZ

'To Nowhere' is playing. I think I heard that song before. So, next year's the time to face head on to whatever it may be! I asked Yong Jin to be my half-tutor, seeing that he has 7As, straight As. I wanna be stronger next year and be no longer the frightened me. Hah, so much for the motivational talk, let's see 2 years later...

'Will' is playing. All this songs belongs to Kajiura-san. Anyway, I don't wanna be scared of braces next year if I'm even gonna wear one. I think I will, my teeth is not that nice... I want to be more fearless that I'd ever be and shape myself up for my future even though I know no goals... OTZ 'Tsuyoku naru!', I want to be stronger! But there's always 2 thing that turns me off; Sports Day and Road Run Day. Arghhh!!!

Listening to 'Noir'. And now 'Morning Moon'. It's Kobato's amv they're playing now. Ahh, they are showing the last 2 episode!!! It's so sad!!! I think I had enough of talking... Bye bye~~

Monday
19/12/2011
00.43am

CF is officially finished now... T_T Didn't get to watch the screening. Didn't get to see Shimokawa and Ceui (even though I don't know them XD) because we have to eat with Ashley for lunch for her b'day. Miss out on a lot of things...

But! I finally get to fulfill my dream; to take a pic with Fran from KHR. Dreaming since I saw a Fran in C2AGE 2011. I wanted to cosplay Fran but no money, no time, uncle said Fran does not look like a person but I LOVE him. So cute~!!! I got to take it with him, and a real boy at that! It was kinda awkward because he'd just took off his frog head and did something to his clothes so he asked me to hang-on for a while. He looks so cute! <3 Here's Fran:



Isn't he a cutie pie? Maybe not for some people OTZ But as far as I know, people that knows him doesn't have a grudge over him. He only appears at the back parts of Katekyo Hitman Reborn.

This blog is the process, dumping area and whatnots for me, you can check out my 'outcome' blog at (shake-the-passion.blogspot.com)

That blog is like I said, an 'outcome' blog, which means I dump my finished works there, like cosplay photoshoots, photography and drawing. Do comment there if you do! I did a little photoshoot and wished to update it as soon possible! Went to CF today (day 2) and had a tiny photoshoot with Ashley and my sis. Photograph is taken by Kcee Kua, really nice~~! <3 It cheers me up a lot, knowing that I have nice photos instead of blurry photos that are taken in dark spots of the convention center...

Trying to do a Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler) cosplay team with Dion. I'll be doing Ciel, she'll be doing Trancy. There comes a time when I'll finally cosplay Jiggy Pepper (Letter Bee/Tegami Bachi), and that time, my first cool character will come true. By observing my sister and me, people likes cool people more because I had always cosplay cuter charas...

Want to cosplay cool boys and magical girls! My 2 aims! If I manage to do it right, I'll be infinitely happy. My life is complete today; my beloved Gauche Suede had came to me. Yes!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you~!!! Wah!!!

We went and exchange money for coins (RM5 for 1 coin T_T, so expensive, normal is RM4 for 1 coin) to turn out the balls in a machine.We saw Letter Bee and went to put the coins in it, needs 2 coins... Joey, my cousin, is VERY lucky... Wanna cry T_T. She's cosplaying as Niche (she loves her a lot) and got Niche! Not fair!!! Then, Dion went and turned; she got Lag Seeing (my cosplay chara!). I was the last to put the coins, and I was like 'Noir, Noir, please Noir, Noir, Noir!!!' Then I put in the coins and you know what, I got Steak. Sometimes things just doesn't go the way you want. Wait, there's more!

On the 2nd day, we went again, this time Joey's not cosplay, going back to becoming our 'maid'! XD Me, not wanting to give up, went again and hoped, hoped, hoped. 'Noir!!!' I turned, last again, and what do you know, this time it's not Steak but it's Gauche!!! Noir is Gauche's older version, with smaller eyes, but he's still sexy!) I couldn't be happier!! I would cry on that spot if I didn't get him... I was so excited and keep on exclaimed 'Gauche, Gauche!!' Lydion, my tuition friend, were there with me, also exclaiming because she said Gauche is really cool. We tried to open the ball, but can't, and twisted it. After a long time, I got to open it and little Gauche flew all the way from the ball to the floor. Lydion picked him up for me (omg, thanks!! <3) because it's hard for me to bend down in Will's costume. We were squelling. Go keychain Gauche!

Oh, I met a Gauche cosplayer on Day 1 and took a photo with him. He asked for my FB name and I gave him. Is it just me, or ppl can't get my name's spelling correct?? It's okay, if it was me, I'd probably couldn't hear it properly too. XD

I'm sorry if this post is too long. Here's a little pic to accompany:



Lag Seeing's picture is unavailable at the moment because I can't seem to find the file in my laptop (where is IT?!?! Arghhh!!!) and neither can I find it on FB. Been stalking my own photos in FB since yesterday night and can't find any *hearts dropped* except for a pic where we were the background people when the photographer was shooting a cosplayer. At least my face can be seen. /foreveralone.jpeg/

I think that's enough for now. XD Gonna say lotsa things later if I remember! Bye~~ <3

Thursday
15/12/2011
5.26pm

Hello, people! Comic Fiesta (CF for short) is coming soon on this Sat and Sun! I am excited but worried too. Worrying about what I should do, or if I did the right thing... It is the 2nd cosplay event I will be participating this year; the first one's at C2AGE.

I trimmed my Lag Seeing wig today and I am kinda proud of myself! Wanna upload it but my phone's spoiled and I don't really know how to transfer pics from the camera (in short, lazy). Kinda.. Still, I'm not in the mood to organize my pics in a large scale. Made a checklist yesterday night on my phone and Mummy asked me who I'm sms-ing to, so I told her I'm doing a checklist. Made one for tomorrow too, in case I forgot something and goes into depression.

Okay! I shall prepare the letters for Tegami Bachi~ I mean, I prepared it already, just missing the seals and the stamps. Let me go through the checklist:

1. Put contact lens in solution. [CHECKED]
2. Trim Lag's wig. [CHECKED]
3. Do Tegami Bachi's seals and rub pencil lines off envelopes.
4. Create the parcel paper for Ashley's b'day present.
5. Think of plans for Ashley's b'day surprise.
6. Comb Will's wig.
7. Rewatch Pandora Hearts.
8. Stick stamps onto Tegami Bachi's envelopes.
9. Finishing touches of x'mas cards.
10. Test Lag's cosplay.

Only 2 checked... OTZ Gonna continue tomorrow too. Yeah, I am trying to surprise Ashley on CF, but have to think of plan B, C, etc too. Just in case it happened the opposite.

So, now I shall log off and to whoever that's going to CF as a cosplayer or a visitor, gambatte ne!

Tried dancing Stardust Utopia by Vocaloid's Luka Megurine! Oh, that has gotta be the hardest dance ever! But, don't fret! 'Cos I'm not giving up 'till I learn the whole dance! Ganbatte ne!

Learned the dance for until 23 seconds only, which is before she started singing. But I somehow learned it in about 10 mins! XD That's kinda quick for me~ I like Luka and her dances. It's so cool~! The dance I'm learning is really fast and requires lotsa energy that sometimes I panicked.

The modem was down for a few days last week, so that's the reason I haven't update my blog. And also my diary. Yeah, I have a diary, which is inside my laptop for things that are more personal. So the topics here and inside my diary is like 2 different worlds. Kind of. XD

Also known as 'kisu yori mo hayaku'.

It's a manga illustrated by Meca Takana (a pen-name) whom is also mistaken for a male because of the unisex-sounding name. OTZ I was puzzled too. I'm going to introduce the manga and hope that there will be an anime, though they have a drama CD. I LOVE THIS MANGA A LOT. I may have spoken of it before, but I'm not sure. It took more than 2 hours just to crop out parts that I like from chapter 1 and now I know how working feels like. It's really time-consuming.

Faster Than A Kiss focuses on a 16-years-old girl [Kaji Fumino] who had a little bro [Kaji Teppei] and after their parents died, they jumped from one relatives to another. Tired of the whole thing, she decided to quit school and support her brother. She packed and leaves with Teppei, hoping to find a job and a place to stay.

But only her English teacher [Ojiro Kazuma] came to look for her. He found her sitting on a bench in the park when she was about to accept a stranger's request to have sex in exchange for money. Ojiro approached them and the man ran away. He asked Fumino to go back to wherever her place is but she doesn't want to return and challenged her sensei to marry her and take care of her brother. Little did she know, Ojiro did agree. Now, the heart-pumping story starts!

(Disclaimer: This manga/comic is not illustrated by me, nor belongs to me. I'm just a really dedicated fan who happens to have a blog and loves the manga. *bows*)


Kaji Fumino's first appearance! She is misunderstood as a person who likes to fight, but in truth, she is a justifying person~


The teacher, Ojiro Kazuma.


The young wife cosplay! Unknown to the school, they were married. Not officially, since Ojiro did say that this is just temporary while she is still studying and when she reached 18, she is free to find a boyfriend and release their marriage status. But she refused anyway, because she likes Ojiro.


This is where he found her.


Kaji Teppei's first solo appearance! Ah~ So kawaii!


The neighbour, Ryuu, who is a friend of Ojiro and a teacher at Teppei's kindergarten. Ryuu used to be a delinquent with Ojiro.


Fumino attempting to prompt Ojiro to do it with her, and this is his responce:


'If you want to do it, grow them at least to a C.' 'It's not enough...' Arghh!!! But I think the reason he said that is because he wants Fumino to reach 18 before doing it. They have platonic love... T_T


This teacher really are not afraid of being found out, huh...


Ryuu's charm~! It's actually a picture of him (behind with the no.2) and Ojiro. The tiny thing that they are saying is that Ryuu told Fumino that the photographer was beaten up after this shot.


Fumino's past, when her parents died.


Hajimete no Deeto~~ (First Date~~)


This is what I though as well... Except that I don't have a juicy sensei to touch T_T


Took the words outta my mouth


One night at their home


Hide, hide, HIDE!!


He's coming in... I mean, he came in already.


Ooh~ Intimate <3








Sensei saw something...


The train is coming


Did sensei manage to find them...?

GO READ AND FIND OUT!

For me, it's a REALLY nice~ It is a really SWEET manga! Make you want to just hug them!! Plus points: Ojiro is cute and hot, Fumino is cute and pretty, Teppei is so damn CUTE~!!! (\(*.*)/)

Tuesday
05/12/2011
13:23pm

The Internet was down for a few days and I have to bear with Sims2... But at least I managed to created a few nice houses! I'm proud of myself~ I'm especially proud of the townhouse I created; I print-screened it but I can't seem to find the files in my laptop... T_T It looks like a block of brown and milk chocolate. [The time in blogspot is really messed up, so I figured I should define the day, date and time when I write in my blog! It's not like anyone is gonna read it anyway.]

It's been almost a year since I watched Pandora Hearts and it's just a vague memory. Catching up to at least some episodes, or to get a hang on how Alyss (Will of the Abyss) behaves. Well, my CF (Comic Fiesta) charater is a mystery since I didn't tell anyone about it, and when I realized, I chose not to tell. So, I'll let it out here and see who accidently comes across my blog!

CF is a 2-days event hosted in KLCC (Kuala Lumpur Convention Center) this year. I planned to go there early, but I doubted it anyway. On the first day, there will be a special screening of Hoshi Wo Ou Kodomo (Children Who Chase Lost Voices from Deep Below). And also an appearance of Shimokawa Mikuni and Ceui! It will be held on the 17 & 18 of December and I'm going for 2 days. So, here's my surprise charas~:

Day 1

Lag Seeing (Letter Bee or Tegami Bachi)

Day 2

Alyss or Will of the Abyss (Pandora Hearts)

I am so going to ENJOY and REJOICE in CF! I want it to be my special break~ Oh yeah, last Saturday, we went to IOI Mall and I decided to play that game where you'll have to dance since my cousin is playing those children games. It was really exhausting and my sis got more points than me! It's my second time playing, but it can be awkward when kids stare at you... <(-.-)>

And I realized that the 2 characters I'm cosplaying has white hair, purple eyes and bandage on their leg. I ordered 6 wigs online (including my sis's) and it will take an estimated time of 2-3 weeks to come. What?! It is aimed for CF, isn't it? Well, I hope it will come in time. If not, I'm so freaking gonna kill myself... Not literally. I saw in Candy Candy (an anime) that when you really want to wish for something, you'll have to sacrifice the things that you like. For example, you like eggs, so you quit consuming eggs for that day and use it as a sacrifice to pray for what you need. That's what I did, except I didn't sacrifice that thing I like, I sacrifice my wounds. Sad news...

I kneeled on my knees wounds for 3 days straight and prayed for the wigs to come on time. If a sacrifice is needed for my prayer, I would totally do it. Please, Please, PLEASE!!! I sacrificed and prayed so please COME IN TIME. *seriously depressed*

p.s. Watching ep3 where Oz came into the abyss and the toys running around and laughing is seriously creeping me out...