Hello, a year had passed, huh? We all are getting old and some are borned, some passed away, nevertheless, we're all humans. I'm now at my granduncle's house celebrating the Chinese New Year while all my other cousins went back to their home town. T^T But it's okay.

The dog had gotten so big! There's the usual Brenda and a new dog that just came recently (either last year or last 2 year). Brenda is white and black with A LOT of fur!! She's so fluffy~! The other dog (whose name sounds like Heki) is brown and black with short fur.

I almost got bitten by Brenda yesterday. Brenda is a 14-year-old female dog. I was trying to get her out and I move my hands on her fur and tried to puch her a little towards the door and she suddenly jumped up and my right hand n inside her mouth. And she is so ginormous which makes it even scarier. I sprinted to the sofa, omg... OTZ I'm scared of her now.

The other dog (presumably 'Heki') is a lot friendy though active. She's also a female. When I first came - which is yesterday - I am actually scared of her because she's jumping and sniffing at people. Everytime I came to this granduncle's house, I would dash inside because I'm scared of their dogs. Been doind it as far as I can remember. OTZ

Okay, people are lighting fireworks and both of the dogs are really scared, so every year, they would scratch the door and whimpered. Heki is running into a room (which used to be my uncle's art room and he doesn't use it now), my grandmother is sitting on a chair. I went in and slowly approached Heki whom was laying by a corner now. I sat beside her and am scared that she would suddenly attacked me.

She seem kinda normal until my Mom came in and she stood up, coming closer to be. Omg, I was scared like hell. But I didn't want to escape from the dog because I came in to accompany it. I had wanted to bond with the dogs at the end of the day. Somehow, I manage to go through and sat there for some time. She was getting kinda sleepy so I tried pulled her onto my legs, but she was so heavy...

Only her head manage to rest on my thighs. And I was so scared she would bit me because that time I was wearing a short pants-skirt. But now I'm wearing jeans, hahaHAHAHAHAHA!!! I felt a lot safer. Omg... People are coming in now. Heki came in. I touched her. Back to yesterday, I sat with her and tried to ask her to come out of the room but she refused. In the end, I managed to though. Now she's back to the room again...

Today we're going to eat vegetarian food, it's like a tradition. Bye now! I'm gonna accompany Heki. How she doesn't bites!

I realised that the time in blogspot is actually accurate... XD Omg... How dumb.

Okay...

I just wanna say something, relate something...

Just now, around 5-10 mins ago, there's this guy that confessed to me. It wasn't such a big deal. I had wrote it in my resolutions that I will not exclaim in disgust when someone confesses or have a crush on me. Everybody's a human. Well, it was weird because I did not feel panicky and heart thumping. I felt just... normal. Omg, maybe the years of my 'quarantine-from-love' actually messes up my emotions; I don't even blush anymore! Something must be wrong...

I guess I wouldn't reveal his name or anything, so let me just copy the chat. But, of course, I denied him politely, just see the chat. I can't believe I did something this brave, to turn down someone, which I don't think I have done a lot. Wait...

Me: sorry... (somewhere after the confession)

Him: hope you don't feel bad
no...
i should say sorry
^^;;

Me: nope i dun feel bed...
*bad
wrote everything in my resolutions

Him: lol ^^;;
hmm?

Me: i'm just waiting...

Him: what do you wrote?
waiting?

Me: for someone

Him: ...........
you...love someone?

Me: nope
i love a lot of people
i guess u could say that
i hope u dun mind

Him: it's ok...
:)
but...
fion...
is it ok...if...
i have feelings on you? ><;;;
um...

Me: yeah, but keep in mind that i won't feel the same :)

Him: :D
ok...
but i wanna told you that
i am a type of person that will never lie and loyal to u
and..i will try not to make you sad ^^
ne.. :)

Me: nvrmind
did u tell other ppl?

Him: nope
you between you and me :)

Ok, I know, people do not just copy and paste a chat and everything but since this blog had so little visitors, I'd thought I'll post it. I'm sorry if this post offended anything, though I don't think so. Now we are still chatting. He asked me:

Him: urm...
fion..
would you free next month or next week?

Me: nope

Him: oh...

Me: forever not free
and i can't go out

Him: oh...
parents ne..
i see...

Me: me too
lazy...

Him: ......
oh...
well...
i thought i wanna meet you in person...
you know...
get to know you well :)

Me: oh~
is it an indirect date
?

Him: you never meet me too right? :)
urm....
if...you think so...yes ><;;;
(man i feel awkward here)

Me: i dun think so, what do u think

Him: then it will be just a normal hangout then :)
and..i dun think much about lol
:)
eh...sorry ya fion..
this comes all too sudden ==;;

Me: it's oka... (okay, omg...)
normal...
but what's ur true intention to go out?

Him: just to know you :)
you scared?
you can ask your sis to come along too

Me: i can't come...

Him: well...i wont have guts to harm people anyway

Me: i mean, i dun normally go out

Him: you will know why if you know me well
ok...
it's ok...

Me: ??

Him: i just inviting you anyway .. :)
lol you blurred? XDD

Me: ok...

I don't think I wanna talk about this anymore... It makes me feel dizzy and over-conscious. But one thing that I'm glad of is; I dunno why I didn't over-react. In fact, I feel normal. But, it's okay! I'm just gonna wait and wait... and wait... wait, wait... wait... for that guy that will be my husband though it's early to talk about it now. OTZ

Then, now I think I shall close this post. :) Bye bye, this may just be the beginning of my problems...

Oh and, in The Bachelor: London Calling, he married Shayne! OMG! I can't believe it! With the children author off and Noelle, I can't believe Shayne did it! I'm in heaven! HahahaHAHAHAH!!!!!

Tuesday, 17/01/2011, 22.46pm

Yeah, I'm back after I don't know how long. XD Been writing anime lyrics into my new lyrics book and I don't know if I even can finish it or not. Wrote 10 lyrics, some still incomplete. Maybe all's complete except for Kuroshitsuji's 'Monochrome Kiss'.

Now listening to Pandora Heart's soundtrack, which I assume, all are composed by Yuki Kajiura, because her name is imprinted in the picture. Omg, I adore Yuki Kajiura! She makes awesome songs, nolstagic kind. Now listening to 'Parallel Hearts' which is the opening song for Pandora Hearts. I copied the lyrics somewhere last week and had been practicing it. I'm like singing it every day... OTZ

Other than this, there is also other songs that I sing practically every day! I must have like singing a lot... OTZ Yeah, another 2 is Kuroshitusji's 'Lacrimosa' and Letter Bee's 'Hatenaki Michi'. No idea what it means... XD I don't want to make this a long and boring blog post, so I'll speed up and shorten it.

Okay, just now someone posted a video on FB, so I check it out. I ended up sharing it and tagged some people because it is so fucking sad. I kinda hope you missed the word before 'sad', because that is not like me. I would only say that when I think something is more extreme than the normal things. Okay, I shall summarise it:

It talks about a disabled man and his dog, trained dog who takes care of the disables. He lives for 17 years which means 100 in human years. After a while, his legs begin to weaken and when he walks, he would fall down. Omg, it's so sad... He helps his master in whatever, his daily life and everything; he was loyal. Then came the day when he no longer can walk or even see, so he just lay on a kind of cloth with his master beside him on his wheelchair.

The dog felt the presence of strangers (videomen) and begins to cry to protect his master from them, because he can't see. They invited a foreign woman, who communicates with animals and she tries to get in tune with the dog and told the master what the dog said.

It was so damn sad... T^T He said that he wants the master to be happy, so he would feel happy too. Omg, I broke down... The dog revealed that they went to see baseball tournaments, which is true. It was so sad, so SAD, SO SAD!!!!!!!!! The dog is loyal, damn... He said that he loves the master a lot, and he hope to always be by his side. Like even if he died and reincarnate or something. Reminds me of the song 'Servant of Evil'.

Anyway, I cried. CRIED. Omg, it has been such a long time... The shows I cried for is maybe 'Koizora', 'Hachiko', 'Helen the Baby Fox' and some other Japanese movies. T_T Yeah, I know I had said that it wouldn't be long, but...

Haiz... I tagged some people and if I did tag you, please do not hesitate and just watch it. OTZ Hmm... I must have wanted to say something but I forgot... XD

Okay, bye!