Hi, today let's talk about past experiences...

I remembered the time I went to Tesco. I was asked to stand in the line with the cart. So I just go and stand. I was behind a family with a mother, a sister and a brother. I think so. The brother saw me and keep peeping. I pretended not to see. These kind of things is common for me. I used to get creep up a lot when boys look at me in shopping malls, ice skating rinks and etc, but now I know how to handle it a bit already.

So let's continue, and as I said, he was peeping. I wanted to push my cart infront because there was another woman trying to cut my line, but when I'm pushing the cart, it felt heavy. Like something is holding it. Then I look at my cart and see what's wrong, guess what, the boy is unconciously holding on the side of my cart. I slowly back off and went to my uncle and tell him. Then the boy realised that I'm gone and he's holding onto my cart, he let go immediately and went away.

Then the woman cut my line. Haiz... Today I went ice skating. My ice skating improved already. I already didn't go to ice skating for 5 months. I was afraid that I couldn't skate. But when I got in the rink, it was suprisingly easy. I warm up for 2 rounds and then started speeding. Actually speeding is against the rule, but a lot of boys speed up there ( rarely girls ) so I also speed up. But nobody dragged me out of the rink. Luckily.

Today I was told to teach a girl around 4 years old to ice skate. She look like 3 years old. She had a brother around 6, a baby sister around maybe only 3 months and a sibling still inside the mother's stomach. I was amazed how does the mother take care of them. I asked Dion ' Do you think that the mother is pregnant? ' Dion answered ' I think so. Must be. '

Unfortunately the girl I was teaching does not understand English well. But it was kind of easy for us ( me and Dion ) to understand her because my house got a lot of people who's hard to communicate with. We use sign language. She understood some.

After a while, a girl around my age came and talk to me. Her name is E something. I think is Edela. She asked for mine and said that it's a good name. Her mother's a malay, while her father's a chinese. Then she asked if we are twins and I said yes. She said ' Twins and so beautiful. ' I told her that she's beautiful too.

Before we even meet the small girl, me and Dion talked. Then Dion skate out slowly while I still stand at the side. Something told me not to go out and I know why because when Dion is going out, a boy around 13 is coming alomg and nearly banged into Dion. He desperately tried to stop and waved his hands infront. My uncle and mother saw that too. Me and my uncle laughed to each other. Then I tell Dion what just happened. The boy is quite cute too.

He came with 4 more other boys. When we were teaching the girl, the boy who nearly banged into Dion ( he's wearing a white T-shirt, so just let us call him white ) and another of his friend ( around 13 also, he's wearing a black shirt, so let's call him black ) stand between me and Dion. They saw me saying wait to Dion because I was trying to get over there and they too keep blocking. Then black skated out a bit and white stayed at the side to let me cross.

When we were skating and there was a small space between us, black skate between me and Dion. When I'm skating alone, white swept past me and his arm touch mine. His shirt was all wet. I stopped because my legs was tired and I turned around and saw one of their friends smiling at me. Then there was another guy not from their group, wearing a brown shirt with an orange tag looked at me and purposely came to me and swept past me.

I made a new friend, I think is the brother of the girl around my age. We exchanged phone numbers and said that the next time if I go to ice skating, I call him. Then we ( me, Dion, my uncle and my mother ) went to a restaurant to eat. The table beside us is seated by a boy around 14-15 years old. I think his father is the owner of the restaurant. When I was eating, he keep peeping at me. I noticed because ever since boys started looking at me which is this year, I'll know. I got a sensor. Kid of. I don't need to look to tell. Then I told them ' I'm feeling so uncomfortable here. ' and immediately my uncle knows why. My mother also knows. But as for Dion, I don't know.

When we finished eating, we decided to talk about things that happened at the skating rink. We keep talking about the boy when he nearly banged into Dion because it was so hilarious. We keep laughing and laughing. I'm trying very hard not to bang the table because when I'm over-excited, I tend to hit things. The boy then casually sit at the table next to us's and sit facing directly at me. He keep looking at me and laugh along with us. But without sound. Then when we go back, my uncle look at the boy and the boy smiled at him as if saying ' Thanks for the entertainment. ' and my uncle said that when I got up the boy keep looking at me and smiling.

When we got home, my uncle said why today I was so attractive. I said I don't know. I wonder why also. It happened at the ice skating rink and the restaurant. I can bear most of the boys looking at me but when there is a very handsome or cute boy that look at me, I tend to look away and pretend that I didn't saw them. I hold some gazes to see what would they do and they would normally look away.

What could come next? Who knows? Bye~

Forgive me readers for not posting for so long. I was lazy...

SO... I don't know what I want to talk about, so maybe I'll talk of the mysterious brother that appears in my dream recently this year...

At the starting of the year, around April, I suddenly wished to have a brother. I imagine him to be the brother that I've always wanted. Until, 1 day, a mysterious boy around 15 to 16 years old appeared in my dream. I was with him. He was teaching and encouraging me to do something. He smiled to me and he do stuff that I wanted my brother to do.

At first, I wasn't suspicious that he appeared in my dreams. He appeared a second time in my dreams around September. This time, I was in a white hole. I saw the brother and a boy around 17 to 18 years old. They were fighting. The boy is holding a LONG sword while the brother is holding a shorter one.

I didn't want my brother to get killed, so I ran over to them and stand between them. Now, I'm face to face with the boy. That means my brother is behind me. I realised that the boy had yellow stripes on his face, like a tiger's stripes. His hair was seperated to the right. He push his sword against mine, and I found out that I was holding a sword- a short one, even shorter than my brother's. I must have been around my feet's size.

The boy told me to buzz off if I didn't want to get killed, but I refuses to budge. Then I sensed his aura. I realised that his aura is saying that it's not him who wanted to kill my brother, but someone instructed him to. I feel so sorry for him. He had a painful look on his face.

Then my brother came to the rescue and stand beside me. We defeat the boy together, but I don't know who wins because then I got up. So shitty...

I dreamed of him for the third time is in the white hole as well. Me and Dion is standing opposite to each other, around 15 meters away. I saw brother standing in the middle looking sad. He was wearing a white T-shirt, a black pants, white socks and a black shoe. his face had gotten clearer. I wanted to see his face clearer and then I got up...

The 4th time is the last time I dreamt of him. I was also n the white hole. I was kneeling on the ground when I saw someone approching me. He kneeled down beside-behind me. It was brother. he put his hands on my shoulders. Then I was looking at myself and brother at another point of view. He came closer and said something to me. I was half in my body near the brother and half inside the me that was looking at us. But I know that he was telling me something encouraging. Then I woke up.

I was thinking all the time: Who could he be? What could he be saying to me? And who is the boy with yellow stripes on his face? Maybe they came from another dimensions? I'll never know, or maybe I will...

Anyway, today I went to IOI Mall's Popular bookstore. I was reading The Charm Club when I say a family- mother, father and son. The son look like someone from my kindergarten. He was probably my first 'like'. If it was really him, I would have preferred his kindergarten look.

My school is on holiday now...

Bye~