Today on 19/02/2012, a Thursday night

I realised that the time in blogspot is actually accurate... XD Omg... How dumb.

Okay...

I just wanna say something, relate something...

Just now, around 5-10 mins ago, there's this guy that confessed to me. It wasn't such a big deal. I had wrote it in my resolutions that I will not exclaim in disgust when someone confesses or have a crush on me. Everybody's a human. Well, it was weird because I did not feel panicky and heart thumping. I felt just... normal. Omg, maybe the years of my 'quarantine-from-love' actually messes up my emotions; I don't even blush anymore! Something must be wrong...

I guess I wouldn't reveal his name or anything, so let me just copy the chat. But, of course, I denied him politely, just see the chat. I can't believe I did something this brave, to turn down someone, which I don't think I have done a lot. Wait...

Me: sorry... (somewhere after the confession)

Him: hope you don't feel bad
no...
i should say sorry
^^;;

Me: nope i dun feel bed...
*bad
wrote everything in my resolutions

Him: lol ^^;;
hmm?

Me: i'm just waiting...

Him: what do you wrote?
waiting?

Me: for someone

Him: ...........
you...love someone?

Me: nope
i love a lot of people
i guess u could say that
i hope u dun mind

Him: it's ok...
:)
but...
fion...
is it ok...if...
i have feelings on you? ><;;;
um...

Me: yeah, but keep in mind that i won't feel the same :)

Him: :D
ok...
but i wanna told you that
i am a type of person that will never lie and loyal to u
and..i will try not to make you sad ^^
ne.. :)

Me: nvrmind
did u tell other ppl?

Him: nope
you between you and me :)

Ok, I know, people do not just copy and paste a chat and everything but since this blog had so little visitors, I'd thought I'll post it. I'm sorry if this post offended anything, though I don't think so. Now we are still chatting. He asked me:

Him: urm...
fion..
would you free next month or next week?

Me: nope

Him: oh...

Me: forever not free
and i can't go out

Him: oh...
parents ne..
i see...

Me: me too
lazy...

Him: ......
oh...
well...
i thought i wanna meet you in person...
you know...
get to know you well :)

Me: oh~
is it an indirect date
?

Him: you never meet me too right? :)
urm....
if...you think so...yes ><;;;
(man i feel awkward here)

Me: i dun think so, what do u think

Him: then it will be just a normal hangout then :)
and..i dun think much about lol
:)
eh...sorry ya fion..
this comes all too sudden ==;;

Me: it's oka... (okay, omg...)
normal...
but what's ur true intention to go out?

Him: just to know you :)
you scared?
you can ask your sis to come along too

Me: i can't come...

Him: well...i wont have guts to harm people anyway

Me: i mean, i dun normally go out

Him: you will know why if you know me well
ok...
it's ok...

Me: ??

Him: i just inviting you anyway .. :)
lol you blurred? XDD

Me: ok...

I don't think I wanna talk about this anymore... It makes me feel dizzy and over-conscious. But one thing that I'm glad of is; I dunno why I didn't over-react. In fact, I feel normal. But, it's okay! I'm just gonna wait and wait... and wait... wait, wait... wait... for that guy that will be my husband though it's early to talk about it now. OTZ

Then, now I think I shall close this post. :) Bye bye, this may just be the beginning of my problems...

Oh and, in The Bachelor: London Calling, he married Shayne! OMG! I can't believe it! With the children author off and Noelle, I can't believe Shayne did it! I'm in heaven! HahahaHAHAHAH!!!!!